Thursday, 18 August 2011

time: limited edition

sometimes, it's warm. just yesterday, when i woke up in the morning, and the house was still quiet. nenek just sat beside me and told me the stories of her life. as she gets on with her story, and i just listen, i realized that, for a moment, she isn't getting herself tired, but still content. she suddenly forgets about the things that would usually lead her to yell. perhaps it's that easy, i said at the back of my mind.

from her stories, i learnt about adults and us. how much we differ. how much time has changed. and at that moment i could see the reasons of why sometimes she insists of something so much. why most adults would do that. like someone with OCD would. honestly, i'm one who is allergic to OCD people ( you can ask my friends..) but what i also realized, there's so much love and kindness behind everything. that she really didn't like to yell. that she also likes for things to be quiet.

life isn't long. people say, age eats you away. it's okay to lose to them sometimes, before you lose them forever. you might think that maybe they'll lose you forever first, but so what, in the end, it's not their gain, it's yours. do you think that every sacrifices you made is for them? no. it's for yourself. as mom said it. "jangan ingat bila kita buat baik kat orang, itu untuk orang. tak, sebenarnya untuk kita." because in the end, we are the ones to collect the fruits in akhirah. sometimes, you have to have patience. and for quite a bad-tempered girl like me, it's really a test. and i would have to repat to myself, "waktu anis kecik2 dulu sp yg jage?sape yg kne jage anis waktu baba n mama g kje?nenek..."

so, this is for nobody else, but me. a reminder for myself. a friend said " the only person i have to be better than, is the person i was yesterday" ^_^

Aku Ingin MencintaiMu

Friday, 12 August 2011

Zain Bhikha- Allah Knows

When you feel all alone in this world
And there's nobody to count your tears
Just remember, no matter where you are
Allah knows
Allah knows

When you carrying a monster load
And you wonder how far you can go
With every step on that road that you take
Allah knows
Allah knows

No matter what, inside or out
There's one thing of which there's no doubt
Allah knows
Allah knows
And whatever lies in the heavens and the earth
Every star in this whole universe
Allah knows
Allah knows

When you find that special someone
Feel your whole life has barely begun
You can walk on the moon, shout it to everyone
Allah knows
Allah knows

When you gaze with love in your eyes
Catch a glimpse of paradise
And you see your child take the first breath of life
Allah knows
Allah knows


When you lose someone close to your heart
See your whole world fall apart
And you try to go on but it seems so hard
Allah knows
Allah knows

You see we all have a path to choose
Through the valleys and hills we go
With the ups and the downs, never fret never frown
Allah knows
Allah knows


Every grain of sand,
In every desert land, He knows.
Every shade of palm,
Every closed hand, He knows.
Every sparkling tear,
On every eyelash, He knows.
Every thought I have,
And every word I share, He knows.
Allah knows

Monday, 8 August 2011


slms n happy ramadhan..

was back from the trip last week, alhamdulillah everything went well..was relieved to be back in homeland, but somehow, our hearts are as though they are left at the haramain..we'll always miss it, and pray that we'll go back there again, inshaAllah..relieved??pheww..the foods????haha..ini kena cerita dalam bahasa melayu..haha..

stiap kali nk mkn, samada tgh tgk2 buffer atau tunggu2 mknn utk diserve, ktorg akan tahan gelak..sbb selalu ad surprise..surprise ape???jeng3..surprise tu mknn de lar..bler nk mkn tu rse mcm tgh membokar satu misteri nusantara..tertanya-tanya, boleh telan ke x mknn tu nt???huu..mknn dorg,hrmm, bkan x it just don't suit our malay tongue..ader satu kali tu ktorg pegi rumah kawan baba, and they served this's the roti arab yg nipis with minced meat n chilles on top, n then they fold it..really, its.....i don't know, just like i've said it,not for our tongue..after we had one each, uncle fatih and aunty betul told us to have some more. do you know, the mean average of lahmachun per person is 5 pieces???we had to struggle with one..and majority stop until there, but i took two, sebab kesian tgk aunty betul semangat n nampak sincere sgt nk ktorg makan n suker lahmachun tu..huu..bukan nak kutuk ke aper, tp itulah manisnya kenangan, semanis aunty betul's homemade muhallebi..yg ni btul2 pudding yg soft, (slalunye kan pudding firm skit, tp ni mcm ala2 cream)..dessert made of milk n vanilla n tepung 2 thums-up..sdaaap..

so ble dh tau misteri tu,same2 gelak..kelakar tgk berapa je dr those foods  yg palatable (bukan sy, sy slalu mkn je klu org serve, kesian kat dorg..huu..)  ktorg slalu paksa diri sendiri mkn,msg2 waktu tu dh stat buat muka (tringt time grilled mackerel de..nme mcm xkanla lain sgt, tp rupenye btul2 lain..)..n stiap kali (ni kat turkey) akan ader satu serving pinggan besar sayur jer..wahaha..dgn ktorg yg 3 dari 8 org je mkn sayur dlm family, it usually goes to....i don't wanna tell..patutla org2 turki smue cantik2 n slim2 n tinggi2..dorg mkn byk sgt sayur!!!ok..sbb sy pcaye pd yg evidence-based, jd sy pn akan start mkn syr..(yer la tu)n lg satu sbb maybe dorg tu cantik2, dorg ad minuman bernama AYRAN..
jaga2 dgn AYRAN ni, de adalah yogurt pure yg lbih masam,zero gula..xde org dlm family ktorg suker..bnde tu mcm nightmare bg ktorg, ktorg smue share satu gelas ayran tu n sorg dpt satu air kosong yg terasa sgt heaven..huu..ayran tu dorg minum mcm kte minum air sirap..maybe byk bnde x palatable tu sbb dorg x byk gune salts n flavorings..huu..ksian ktorg..dari mknn2 msia yg pnuh dgn rempah, ke mknn yg zero-rempah..maybe sbb tu jgak kot dorg shat2 (yg ni tipu, xtau pn statistics hypertension, dm n etc kat saner..huu..)

tp alhamdulillah, as we moved on to urdun, it was better, except for the portion size, it was 3:1 in msia..huu..ktorg dpt mkn kinafah, it's a dessert kind of dish yg originated from the palestinians( fyi, the palestinians population 1:6 jordanian in jordan) kinafah ni ktorg yg minx kat tour guide tu, so de bw kat tmpat yg de recommend..waktu tu dh mlm, lpas maghrib..sejuk de, sejuk giler!!!huu..dhla ktorg pg tu dr petra,so xde prepare xtra clothing pn, tp tuptup, nk g mkn tu sejuk msuk kat restoran tu smorg tgh mkn bnde petak yg mcm bread pudding tp nipis..rupe2nye bnde tulah kinafah..n kinafah ni, wlupn dessert, de diserve panas, so, sgtla global warming utk kami2 yg tgh amaran, x boleh mkn lbih dari satu, nanti muak..hehe.. ..

but the best is when we got to Madinah and Makkah..the travel agent provided bfast, lunch n dinner, thus, we got malay foods..huu..besnye dpt mkn blik..dhla sedap2 plak tu mknn puji Andalusia ni..hee..tapi ktorg rse jgak mknn org arab, n shawarma best!!!tazaaj maharaja pn ok..hehe..tu je entry kali ni..

bulan2 puase ni criter psal mknn,ish3 =P